October 1st, 2008

Current Music: the annoying voices in my head Current Location: sitting on couch Subject: hello there Time: 02:47 pm Current Mood: crushed

so it said its been 106 weeks or since 2006 since i posted anything on here. lol wow. and its weird that after reading my second to last post that is that it was around the time I talked to the investagator. Since now recently I have been dealing with all of that again. Having to see the teacher every month and everywhere like infront of my JC class last semester. well my stomach hurts strangely right now, it seems like a weird ache then all the others, like a stress ache. its weird that im 21 and in a few months 22. weird seeing people on facebook and how they are moving away or about to be done with college or young kids i knew before are graduating high school this year, makes me feel pretty old or how fast time went by since 2006 almost four years and still almost have my AA, went to italy for a while and then still havent done anything really. then younger kids I have known have been going to high school and graduating this year being around that teacher that got away with everything he did to me, going about his daily business. well for once this semester my math class is making sense so far my phil class is terrible, but i like that he stays on current events i guess scenic design which might be my major is neat i think im just done with school mentally so i am a zombie and screaming while im doing all the hw and listening to the two hour or three hour lectures history quizes are hard im failing then i still work at the gay roxy ( pardon the term gay) but cant get a job anywhere else since i had arrived at the roxy in suit and tie. the annoying customers make it worse, like the little ol ladies staring at you right next to your face too close for comfort , whats the matter? you only have this one chance in life to be happy dont waste it, or a guy or old guy says smile! waiting for 5 minutes and wont give me there ticket. sigh feel like im in a sort of hell o well there are worst jobs that one is too easy the only easy job in fact. i just hope the next stage of my life will come soon and will be the right one.

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September 18th, 2006

Subject: yess Time: 09:09 pm

new livejournal layout. its the spice of life. leave a comment haha.

comments: like a virgin

Subject: what ive learned Time: 08:26 pm Current Mood: busy

ive learned that even though all the hippies gather together in festivals saying they want love between all, none of them or us know about love or connect that well with one another. everyone is off on there own world when the hippies keep saying everyone unite. investagators are frauds and liers. the only way to get by is to stick your head in your own world and love what you have. you cant prove yourself to others. and confidence is crucial in survival.

comments: like a virgin

September 17th, 2006

Subject: hello again. Time: 09:30 pm Current Mood: apathetic

^__ ^ \O O/ = \./= jackie entries comming soon to a computer near you brought to you by LJ enterprises rated R for retarded. actuallyy... i feel like expresing myself now and i think its time for a release! just at a weird party right now really tired. ahhhh ive been a myspace whore. thats where ive been.( i wanted to put a funny picture of me gasping in surprise to this pure fact but sigh stupid camera, oh well thats the end of myspace pic days for a while ;D ) i have a question, what is love * song starts to play with birds chirping in the background. i hope this loneliness turns to independentness.my only hope is that this daydream world of mine that is more bautiful in my head then the real world, comes real one day. -j

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August 4th, 2006

Subject: were jamming Time: 12:55 pm

yea jose and I have a rock song called stairway to hell. oo yeaa

comments: 2 touched for the very first time or like a virgin